The Healing Power of Music - The NF Journey Part Two
NF Hope Album Cover
The Map to Hope
Welcome back to the second part of this series, diving deeper into the world of rapper Nathan Feuerstein, better known as NF. A 32-year-old musician from Gladwin, Michigan, NF has quietly become one of the most powerful voices in hip-hop, blending raw emotion, lyrical depth, and personal storytelling.
Despite amassing over five billion streams worldwide and earning 14 Platinum records and five multi-Platinum hits, NF remains relatively under the radar. His 2017 breakout single, “Let You Down”—which went 8x Platinum—is his only track to receive major radio play.
The Art of Storytelling in NF's Music
NF's music stands out for its raw, emotional storytelling, offering an unfiltered look into mental health struggles, trauma, and self-reflection. His unique blend of rap, hip-hop, and melodic singing creates a signature sound that resonates deeply with fans.
Known as "The NF Journey," his discography takes listeners on an intense emotional ride—destigmatizing mental health issues like anxiety, depression, self-doubt, and feeling like an outsider. His music has become a therapeutic outlet for millions who struggle with OCD, perfectionism, and the weight of unprocessed trauma.
Finding the Map to Hope Through Therapy
NF’s fifth studio album, "Hope" (2023), marks a pivotal moment in his journey—a shift toward healing and self-acceptance. In the music video for the album’s title track, NF wears all white—a stark contrast to his usual black attire, signaling a new era of growth and optimism.
According to Rapzilla, "Hope" debuted at No. 2 on the Billboard 200, marking NF’s fourth Top 10 album, with 123,000 units sold in its first week. While the album still explores mental health challenges, it embraces the difficult but necessary process of emerging from darkness into light.
On “Happy,” he reflects:
"Been this way so long it feels like something’s off when I’m not depressed."
Facing Demons: The Hope Video
In the visually stunning “Hope” video, NF embarks on a journey toward self-discovery. As he raps, he acknowledges the turning point in his mental health:
"Some would say having a mental breakdown is a negative thing. Which on one hand, I agree with. On the other hand, it was the push I needed to get help and start the healing process... If I'd never hit rock bottom, would I be the person that I am today? I don't believe so. I'm a prime example of what happens when you choose to not accept defeat and face your demons."
For years, OCD, anxiety, depression, and self-loathing kept NF trapped in a cycle of emotional struggle. "Hope" represents his breakthrough moment—an acknowledgment that healing is possible, but it requires confronting inner demons head-on.
Empowerment and Confidence in “RUNNING”
The album’s final track, "RUNNING," reveals a newfound sense of self-worth and strength. NF directly addresses his negative thought patterns, setting boundaries on self-doubt:
"I'm tired of holding on to you; it's time to let my pride go and learn to love myself again."
Here, NF flips the script—reclaiming his power and rejecting the cycle of self-sabotage:
"I'm not interested in giving you more of my life, I've already given you too much."
His words aren’t just personal—they echo the struggles faced by millions, including those in the LGBTQIA+ community, who battle mental health challenges in the face of discrimination and systemic oppression. With increasing anti-LGBTQ+ legislation, finding hope and resilience is more critical than ever.
Music as Therapy: NF’s “Therapy Session”
NF has often referred to his music as his own form of therapy, and his song “Therapy Session” makes that message clear:
"When I feel something, whether it's anger, passion, or frustration, this is where I go. This is the whole 'NF Real Music' thing, man. This is real for me—I need this. This is therapy for me."
His music normalizes conversations about mental health, creating a space where people feel seen and heard. Through his lyrics, he addresses childhood trauma, anxiety, and emotional isolation, proving that expression—whether through music or therapy—can be a lifeline.
Conclusion: The Healing Power of Music
NF’s music is more than entertainment—it’s validation, connection, and a reminder that no one has to face their struggles alone. His unapologetic storytelling sheds light on pain, resilience, and healing in a way that traditional discussions on mental health often fail to capture.
Through his music, NF creates a community where authenticity is valued, emotions are acknowledged, and healing is possible..
Missed Part One of my NF music series? Read it here.
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Disclaimer: This blog reflects my thoughts on mental health and isn’t a substitute for therapy. The advice is general and may not fit everyone. If you’re struggling, please reach out to a licensed mental health professional.
